I still remember the days when I naively thought that once I'd finished school and university all the fear, anxiety and nerves would go and I'd evolve like a Pokémon into some sort of freelance illustrator pro. Instead of that fantasy the reality is that it's something I need to put a lot of effort, motivation, discipline and thought into so I can get where I want to, both psychologically and physically. Although my skills of creating an image or design are getting there I now know the things I have to improve and expand on - such as the equally important side of it - copyright, licensing, tax, royalties, contracts and legalities. Education doesn't stop with university and now it's all my own responsibility. A lot this has been going through my head recently and this quick sketch represents all the doubt and fear I have for failing or not making it. I'm hoping that by drawing it out here it will help to get rid of the feeling it's such a daunting task but rather something that will come naturally as I learn and grow as a freelance artist. No longer do I dream of making it one day - but now know that I am making it right now. This is it right here and I've got to focus on the right steps to take to become content with where I am and where I'm going.
I know I don't share too much about my personal life and troubles here and sorry if I'm getting all "Dear diary..." on you but hopefully this insight will be somewhat useful or interesting. If not just know that all freelancing takes dedication, practise, time and willpower and I'm still working on it myself in the ways I know how. The net and deviantART has been a great tool for me so far, so thank you for watching and the continued support.
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